Jamie asked me to sing "You are my Sunshine" over and over and over. Suddenly, he was sobbing in my lap.
"That song is just so sad." sniff, sniff, sniff, sniff "You woke up and cried because your sunshine was GONE."
"Honey, that song isn't about me. I didn't write that song. Just like the lullaby song, or all the other songs I sing you, someone else wrote them, I just sing them"
"Why were you so sad?" sob
"But it's not about me."
"Sunshine's dead and she's never coming back. I miss Sunshine. I loved her. Why did Sunshine have to DIE."
For those of you more recent readers, Sunshine was our dog. She died. Nearly a year ago. At the time, he seemed to handle it shockingly well. Apparently, he's spent a year in the denial stage.
"When I go to bed, I imagine me and Sunshine, cuddling on the couch." sob
Now I'm crying, literally now, and then.
Over heard later that night, "Jake, there once was this really great dog, Sunshine. Her kidneys stopped working. So she died. I miss her."
Sunshine is the black one.
And a really good recipe for butternut squash bread.
Butternut Squash Bread
1 (2-pound) butternut squash
1/2 cup butter, softened
1 1/2 cups sugar
2 large eggs
2 cups unbleached all-purpose flour
1 teaspoon soda
1/2 teaspoon baking powder
1 teaspoon cinnamon
1/2 teaspoon nutmeg
1/2 teaspoon allspice
1/4 teaspoon ginger
1/2 cup chopped pecans
Cut squash in half lengthwise; remove seeds. Place cut side down on a baking sheet; bake until tender (375 for 45-60 min). Scoop out pulp; mash. Discard shell. Measure 1 3/4 cups pulp; reserve any remaining pulp for other uses.
Beat butter, gradually adding sugar; beat well. Add eggs one at a time, beating after each addition.
Combine flour, baking soda, baking powder, and spices; add to butter mixture alternately with squash, beginning and ending with flour mixture. Stir in pecans. Spoon batter into greased & floured (or sugared) 9x5x3 inch loafpan and bake at 350 degrees for 1 hour and 10 minutes or until toothpick inserted in center comes out clean. (Or bake in 4 small loaf pans for 50 minutes/mini loaf pans 40 minutes.)
Cool in pan(s) on a wire rack for 10 minutes. Remove from pan (s), and let cool completely on wire rack.
8 comments:
That is so sad. I hope Jamie starts working through it. Hugs to you all.
Poor little guy! How sad for him. It's so hard to lose a pet.
How awful. Poor Jamie. Poor Holly. She was a WONDERFUL dog. No wonder he still misses her.
I still remember my first dog. I was only 7 when he went away and I still get teary when I see pictures of him. You don't stop loving someone just because he's dead.
That is so touching. My daughter does this too. She will cry over friends and relatives she has never met. She will out of the blue insist that we must visit Great Grandma at the nursing home or worry about one of her friend's dogs getting old. It never ceases to amaze me. I do think she has incredible insightful powers. Your son probably does too.
awwww HUGS!!! For both you and Jamie!
That is very sad. I remember when T was 10, we had to put Gypsy down at 15, a small terripoo. One night a week or so later T was upset and crying so I took him in my room to investigate the situation. He told me he was so sad that Gypsy wasn't there, because when he was sad she would look at him, and lick his face. What could I do, I licked his face. It was so funny, and he felt so much better after that. It is tough to lose a pet. It is actually one of the reasons to have a pet however, as it helps kids at an early age go through that process of mourning. Great post, thanks for sharing this story.
Bless his heart, but tears are a sign of healing. Give him an extra hug from us!
Love the recipe.
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